My Mom Thinks I'm Insane and I Know There's Something Wrong with Me, but I Don't Want Anyone to Know?

tell your mom how you have a desire to kill people and she wont tease you you are mentally ill and deserve help, and if your mom teases you after you tell her whats in your mind then she needs medical attention also. when you recover, which i pray to god you do, and i dont even believe in god, you should be able to see life in a better perspective.